Friday, July 25, 2008
i dun regret what i've done. the previous post states what i really feel. maybe we will nvr be frens again but u know what? it doesn't hurt as much as i would've thought. i guess i kinda expected it tht once u knew u'd react in tht way. tht pretty much shows how much u think for other people. and no i'm not angry. just speechless. i've always been there for u all the way (or maybe to u, u dun think so, i dunnoe.) and just maybe i dun really care anymore. a person tht's close to u doesn't believe u. tell me how does tht feel? what frenship is there if there's no trust? as if i've ever let u down before or betrayed ur trust in anyway. and i AM by nature forgetful. i rmb some and forget some. the only part where i felt i disappointed u was when i couldn't rmb the exact details of ur life. but u can't expect me to whip out a book and record every single thing tht hapened to u right? i dun even do tht for my OWN life. i can't even rmb my whole life properly. how do u expect me to rmb urs? and i AM busy. whether u believe it or not. if u choose not to and expect me to apologize for things tht i dun think i'm in the wrong then we can just screw the whole frenship thing. and no i'm not being stubborn, just tired of giving way. i give way plenty of times to u before. u probably think i SHOULD be the one giving way. but no i dun have to. I'm really tired of all this. to me u're running away from the truth, whenever i start to say sth reasonable u start to say "i dunnoe la i dunnoe la." i still want to salvage this frenship.. dun make it hard. because i'm starting to think of giving up. time can't turn back melissa. i'm no longer in Hua Yi i'm now in Ngee Ann Poly. I join Archery instead of band. i commit to many other different things including my studies. in a sense i am not the Natalie u know in Hua Yi Secondary. my priorities have changed melissa. and u have a choice whether u want to accept me as i am or just forget abt our 10+ years frenship and move on.
