the last few days... has been really really horrible... and i've realised tht somehw whenever u need someone, the person is nvr really there. i apologised for sth tht i didn't think i was in ther wrong. and now when i think back, i get really really angry. this intense anger builds up. and somehow, whenever i really really need someone to be there there is no one. no one at all. no one to tell my troubles to. no one who even bothers. or at least there is no one close tht bothers. i have close frens who blame me and refuses to listen to my explaination. THEY think tht no matter what i say is just to defend my bloody self. when i was not! i was doing things so tht nobody would be so unhappy. so what if both sides are unhappy? at least it's fair what. it pains me to even think bad stuff abt them but i really think so. humans are by nature selfish... but i would've thought tht the ppl closer to me would be less selfish and think a bit for how i feel. but i was wrong. i'm so bloody wrong man. i''m always the one giving in or at least i think so. they probably tink tht i really am in the wrong. i apologize cause i tire from quarreling. and if i dun we will keep on quarreling and i can't understand from their point of view not when i think abt myself. It's only when i sacrifice myself then do i really understand tht i'm in the wrong. i only apologize cause i got tired of trying to explain myself. i want to give in but i can't. i'm so sick and so bloody tired of it all. this post pretty much makes ppl think i'm v selfish and only think for myself but i'm not. if i was thinking for myself weren't they too?
Natalie Loves: Family Frens Him Hates: Cockroach, Ppl who keep me waiting, Dirt, Losing
I'm 17
super forgetful
absolutely hooked onto bridge
makes stupid comments with no offence
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